I must agree with Steph; sleep paralysis is terrifying but extremely fascinating.

I laid down next to my mom to take a nap with her. I dozed off in a sideways position, but when I opened my eyes I was in the subine position (face up) and I could hardly move. I wasn’t scared at first since I was used to this experience since I was little, but then my legs began to rise. Looking at my feet, I was shocked and didn’t see anything rising them. I felt hands holding firmly onto my ankles and lightly pulling me, though not strong enough to move my helpless body. I turned slowly to my mom as I could move, but bit by bit (I started by wiggling my finger), as I was shaking, and once I put my hand over her it stopped. I managed to speak but I don’t know if she heard me. I fell asleep almost a few second after. had a nightmare and woke up later than I should’ve. The dream was vague but it was about someone entering my bedroom. A dark figure, since it was well, dark.

In this apartment, I always feel watched (as I type this, for example), sometimes hear voices, windows open and things fall by themselves. I am often scared when I am alone and I am scared of the dark because of what might sneak in… my mom feels the same, she doesn’t want to say it’s a ghost since she is very superstitious but I have doubts it’s normal.

I’m very scared and alone now. Mom just left to pick up my little sister.

Will get there!

Unfortunately I am not in a position to tell you where I got this information, but I still thought it could be of interest to anybody open minded enough to dare regard this as true sorcery.

I can go as far as telling you that the source of this information has a trail going through the shamans of the Rattlesnake School of Turtle Island, the Twisted Hairs Metis Medicine Society Council of Elders, which incorporates shamans from both North, Central and South America following a continous line more than three thousand years back.

There is no dedicated or consistent litterature about these intimidating dream techniques due to the still active tradition of secrecy initially initiated when the Spanish conquistadors arrived, but it is actually frequently touched in the writings by the following shamanic diciples, who all are in some way connected to the Twisted Hairs Metis Medicine:

Merilyn Tunneshende is one of the active disciples who has written “Twilight Language of the Nagual – The Spiritual Power of Shamanic Dreaming.”

Florinda Donner is another woman in this group. She has written the book “The Witch’s Dream”.

Another member is Taisha Abelar who has written “The Sorcerer’s Crossing”.

The fourth member known to have published material from his experiences in this group is Carlos Castaneda, who has written several books,
“The Art of Dreaming” the most notable.

All four disciples have contributed with some highly interesting descriptions of their involvement in this strange shamanic group, and íf I remember things correctly, they even touch the very source of the Toltec dream knowledge.

Gwandau

I want to reassure you that SP is not your fault, and I have never heard it described in Christian settings as a punishment. Even St Augustine forgave himself for his dreams — read more about the history of dreams and Christianity here:
http://dreamstudies.org/2009/10/08/lucid-dreaming-and-christianity/